I hadn’t been sleeping well for more than a
month and after a concerned talk from my husband, William, I made a doctor’s
appointment. Nightmares had never been a problem for me, but during that month
of struggles, I was getting them a lot; creatures, wholly inhuman, plagued my
dreams and I felt a deep separation from everything and everyone I loved. I
felt that a minor lack of sleep wasn’t a good reason to see the doctor, but
deep down, I knew it would help to put our minds at ease.
Sleep threatened to take me while I sat in
the uncomfortable office chair, waiting for the doctor to decode my test
results. He pulled no punches when delivering to me his diagnosis and the words
struck my entire being like an abomination. It took less than a second for me
to respond.
“Menopause?!” I blurted out, wanting to
lunge across the desk, straight for his throat. He only nodded, silently
referring to my medical file.
“It’s not uncommon for a woman your age” he
stated.
“My age?” I gritted. “I don’t understand.
Wasn’t my last checkup fine?” I desperately hoped that I was the rube in some
cruel joke or that I had inadvertently nodded off and was dreaming.
“It was fine and I do not understand it
completely, either” he said in a calculated manner, but honestly trying to calm
me down. “Is it rare? Yes, but not unheard of.”
“Maybe it’s stress?” I said, praying for a
more temporary diagnosis. My insides burned like they knew he was talking about
them.
“Your estrogen levels are appropriate,
Rebecca, but your oocyte count is basically null.” he said, closing my file and
effectively ending any hopes I had to change his mind.
I wasn’t familiar with the term ‘oocyte’, but context defined it for me.
“So” I began, feeling almost silly about it, “I have no eggs left?”
He nodded with smile they must only teach
you in med school, then went on to lecture me about the female body. My
thoughts went instantly to my five year old daughter, Amelia, and the eventual
conversation we would have to have about why she would never get to be a big
sister.
“It’s not the best news, but try to have a
good Easter, Rebecca” he said as I walked out of his office. His sentiment was
sincere, but it stung nonetheless.
I pulled out of the parking lot and my
tears were free to fall at will; I wanted to get them out of my system as much
as possible before returning home.
‘How
am I going to tell William?’ I asked myself a dozen
times during my drive. And every time, it brought on another fall of tears, so
I took the long way home. I trudged through the varying levels of grief at
record pace and by the time I reached my driveway, I had convinced myself that
everything was going to be all right. I had a diagnosis, but no cause. I had a
million more questions, but they all ended up with the same answer. It tore at
my womanhood and my sense of purpose, but I had convinced myself that we would
make the best of it.
“Hi, honey” William said before I was fully
through the door. Amelia greeted me with a wave from the couch next to him.
“Hi, guys” I smiled. As bad as things seemed
to be, everything I was thankful for was sitting not twenty feet away.
“How was your checkup?” William asked,
ignorant of the results.
“Fine” I shrugged, hoping to buy a little
more time before I had to relay the news to them.
“Well, Ames here was just telling me an interesting
story” he said, holding back a chuckle.
“Is that right?” I said, thankful for the
distraction and taking my spot on the loveseat.
“That’s right” he said and gave Amelia a
playful nudge. “Go Ahead. Tell mommy.”
“I saw the Easter Bunny!” Amelia shouted, nearly
bouncing off the couch.
“That’s good, honey” I replied, trying to
hide the fact that my mind was far away. She was too excited to notice.
“Yeah! In your room the other night” she
finished.
“Okay” I said with a forced smile that
caused hers to drop. I guess my response wasn’t exuberant enough for her
liking.
I wanted to disappear into something
mindless, so I turned on Hulu, and clicked the first thing in our Keep Watching list. It was obvious that
William had been at the helm of the TV because, right away, it started playing some
pedantic documentary about alien abductions and government conspiracies.
”Theories
abound as to why these beings abduct mainly females” the narrator spoke, but I tuned him out. “… our physiology… reproductive systems… alien hybrids” he
continued.
“Why was he here so early, Ames?” William,
the eternal enabling father, humored her. “Easter is a still few weeks away.”
Amelia started to answer, but stopped and
pointed at the television. “That’s him!” she belted out.
William and I looked at the television to
see an artist’s rendition of the supposed ‘Gray Aliens’. It had the
stereotypical bulbous head, almond-shaped, black eyes, and scrawny frame. We
fell literally speechless, waiting for Amelia to laugh at what was obviously a
joke.
“He
told me something, but I forgot” Amelia muttered. “He said he was looking for
something.”
“Who did, Ames?” William asked. “The Easter
Bunny?”
”To
begin their hybridization program,” the narrator continued,
“they start by harvesting eggs of the
abductees.”
“Why do you think it was the Easter Bunny,
Amelia?” I asked, more concerned than curious by that point.
Her eyes lit up with realization and she
shouted, “Eggs! That’s what he said he needed!”
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